So I know I haven't written in a little bit but you might be surprised why! I have been a 100% in my happy place. Not just happy in my head but a happy place in my heart. I have returned to work at a camp that I went to as a child for 8 years and I have absolutely loved it. It sounds silly but camp was my safe place away from the divorced parents and mean kids at school. Camp gave me that safe haven that I needed and I have really enjoyed watching it become that safe place for kids now. Usually at home I force smiles when I think they should be inserted but it never seems natural. Well at camp I sit back and watch this kids and smile without even thinking about it.
I think it is important that we all find that safe place because it reminds us that there are some good things in this life. Not everything is dark and upsetting. Not everything in this world is going to break our hearts and hurt our spirits. Some things make life worth living. I love my camp because I can sit there and remember all of those years that I convinced myself not to commit suicide because camp would always be there for me. Those counselors dedicated their lives to making our experiences spectacular and I am so grateful to have the opportunity to do that for others. Anyways I wanted everyone to know I was doing okay and not to worry about me. I am exhausted emotionally and physically but I am holding in and couldn't be happier. I am scared as hell to start school next year again but I'm hoping this sense of purpose will last me throughout the year. Love y'all and hope you find your own happy places! Sincerly- A Survivor
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February 2017
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