We all have different ideas of what "Good" Days consistent of. For some it is only the days in which something extremely amazing happens and every other day is just okay. For others it's when nothing goes wrong.
For people like me, it doesn't matter what happens throughout the day, it's whether or not I cry when I get home or if I can manage to do something productive like doing a little bit of homework or going out with friends. Essentially, a Good Day is any day that I don't feel like complete and utter shit. A Good Day is when I look at the mirror and only notice if my shirt matches my pants instead of how those pants fit my thighs. A Good Day is when I don't have a panic attack when my professor gets too close to my face to give me constructive feedback. A Good Day is when I can sit back and say, "my life is alright. I may not have much but what I do have is enough." A Good Day is when I can actually say the words "I love you" to my family without feeling like I'm lying. Maybe my standards are low. Maybe these things seem like nothing to you but these are the little victories. Good Days are the ones where I can breath without feeling the pressure of the world on my chest and that is enough for me. We live each day as if we have all the time in the world but with all that's happened recently it is a matter of fact that we just Don't. Things happen. Awful, Terrible things happen. A few days ago was the biggest Mass shooting in the US in Orlando and I just keep thinking, 'it could have been me.' When we are surrounded by so much instability and fear it is important to live each day as a Good Day. Whether you are depressed, bipolar, disabled, whatever, there is nothing holding you back from making today a Good Day. Get out of bed each morning and go to the mirror and look at nothing but your eyes. Look into your own soul and tell it that today will be Good. I don't care if you fail a test or someone disregards you, you look back into that mirror and say it again. Say it as many times as it takes, "Today is a Good Day." You are alive today and that is nothing to be taken advantage of. If it is a bad day then make it a Good Day for the people around you. Go out of your way to buy the person behind you a coffee or hold a door open for a stranger. Do something that your heart feels is right and Good. If it is a bad day let other people's happiness wash over you and accept it. Make their "Thank you"s repeat in your head over and over until you realize what you have to offer. You exist for a reason and when you realize that, I promise, it will become a Good Day. Accept the little victories. It's freaking hard as all Hell but just try to take a step back and recognize what you do have. You have a family, or a home, or food, or a big heart. Even the poorest of people have something and we have to use that to make every day worth living otherwise it is just a waste. Accept the Good Days for what they are (simple) and then when something unusually spectacular happens enjoy the Great Day that follows. Each day we conquer and make Good we become more and more like a -Survivor
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